Having your heart broken is never fun or easy. Especially when you lose someone who you genuinely thought was the love of your life. I know I’ve been there and it was one of the hardest times of my life. But had I never been through that experience, I wouldn’t be where I am today. That experience helped me to grow so much stronger and learn so much about who I am and what I want.
While at the time I couldn’t see anything good about losing someone so important in my life, now I see it so much differently. Had I still been with this person, I wouldn’t be engaged to Robert and living the life I’m living now. Despite the fact that this person hurt me, I’m so thankful they let me go. I’m so glad that they didn’t let things go on and let me believe that they cared more than they actually did.
At the time, I didn’t care, however, and would have done anything I could to change their mind – give us one more chance. We tried the whole “staying friends” thing and I was willing to take what I could get. But every time I saw him, it just made things so much harder.
I think the biggest thing when it comes to the Christian faith is trust. It’s based simply on trusting in Jesus payment on the cross and God’s faithfulness to save you. You have to learn to completely trust in God for everything. And I can tell you from first hand experience that it isn’t easy. I think one of the main reasons is because we think we can do it all on our own and we don’t want to have to rely on others. We want to think we have it all figured out. We want what we want when we want it. However, God’s timing is always perfect. That’s something I’ve been realizing lately.
Since Rob and I got engaged back in January of 2014, we’ve been so antsy and impatient to finally get married. Although, things just haven’t worked out that way for us. There is just so much that we have to figure out and it just became so overwhelming and nothing was going the way we needed it to. I had to just keep reminding both him and myself that things would work out when they were meant to, but that didn’t mean it was any easier. I still continued to feel like things were just never going to work out and we were never going to get married.
But God is faithful.