I remember when I was getting close to graduating high school, so many people would tell me to enjoy it because I would miss it. Here I am, six years later, and I still don’t miss it.
This week is the first week back to school and I’m still just as glad this year as I was the year after I graduation that I don’t have to. Granted, I am taking college classes, but I don’t mind college at all and it’s so different. Growing up, I hated going back to school. I never minded the classes, work or the learning – I just hated school.
The only thing I loved about going back to school was back to school shopping. I have a weakness for office supplies so that was the only thing about it I looked forward to. I haven’t really had much of an excuse the past couple of years to buy a lot of those kinds of things. Even with college classes, I maybe needed a binder, folder, or a notebook and that was about it. Working in an office now, I’ve had a bit of an excuse to buy office supplies I wanted and that would be handy.
I completed my first week of work today and while I loved it, it’s definitely an overwhelming experience. My anxiety had been on overdrive because I’m someone who doesn’t handle change well. I have a super hard time just embracing it and adjusting to it. And I’m so afraid of screwing up or just not knowing what I’m supposed to do. It doesn’t matter that I just started – I still put so much pressure on myself.
I also have some hearing loss, so it can make it really hard communicating with people and that makes my anxiety worse.
Debby, the woman whose job I’m taking over and who is training me, is so awesome and helpful. But she’s been doing it for a while and she is really good at it and I know I’m not going to be as good at it as her. When I started on Tuesday, she was originally not going to be there so I was going to be on my own. That sent my anxiety through the roof. In new situations, I’m not good at winging it what-so-ever. Thankfully, she ended up coming in so I wasn’t on my own and she helped me to jump right into things.