Having your heart broken is never fun or easy. Especially when you lose someone who you genuinely thought was the love of your life. I know I’ve been there and it was one of the hardest times of my life. But had I never been through that experience, I wouldn’t be where I am today. That experience helped me to grow so much stronger and learn so much about who I am and what I want.
While at the time I couldn’t see anything good about losing someone so important in my life, now I see it so much differently. Had I still been with this person, I wouldn’t be engaged to Robert and living the life I’m living now. Despite the fact that this person hurt me, I’m so thankful they let me go. I’m so glad that they didn’t let things go on and let me believe that they cared more than they actually did.
At the time, I didn’t care, however, and would have done anything I could to change their mind – give us one more chance. We tried the whole “staying friends” thing and I was willing to take what I could get. But every time I saw him, it just made things so much harder.
I think the biggest thing when it comes to the Christian faith is trust. It’s based simply on trusting in Jesus payment on the cross and God’s faithfulness to save you. You have to learn to completely trust in God for everything. And I can tell you from first hand experience that it isn’t easy. I think one of the main reasons is because we think we can do it all on our own and we don’t want to have to rely on others. We want to think we have it all figured out. We want what we want when we want it. However, God’s timing is always perfect. That’s something I’ve been realizing lately.
Since Rob and I got engaged back in January of 2014, we’ve been so antsy and impatient to finally get married. Although, things just haven’t worked out that way for us. There is just so much that we have to figure out and it just became so overwhelming and nothing was going the way we needed it to. I had to just keep reminding both him and myself that things would work out when they were meant to, but that didn’t mean it was any easier. I still continued to feel like things were just never going to work out and we were never going to get married.
But God is faithful.
Something I’ve struggled a lot with is the concept of faith. What is faith? How is it different from belief? How do I know I have enough? It something I’ve prayed about a lot lately. Something I’ve been seeking the answer to.
Now I’ve finally at least begun to understand.
The first thing I’ve learned is that faith and belief mean two different things. Belief is the acceptance that a statement is true or something exists. Faith is an attitude of trust in something for the purpose of enabling it to do something for you. You can believe pretty much anything – like a thought or an idea. But with faith, it has to actually be in an object. You can’t just simply have faith. Just like love – you can’t just be in love. Love has to have an object. Belief is required to have faith, but you don’t need faith to have belief.
This has been a question that has been bothering me recently. I seriously don’t understand it. I know the world hated Jesus and he said we would be hated by the world as well. (John 15:18-25) But I just don’t get it. Could someone explain to me why and how?
I think the biggest problem now-a-days is that people don’t fully understand the gospel. I know I didn’t till recently. For the longest time I still thought it was something I had to do. I knew Jesus died for our sins so we could go to heaven, but like many, I thought “It can’t be that simple.” Just believing, simply having faith in what he did and fully trusting in what he did? That’s all I have to do? In the world we live in today, it seems just too easy. Nothing today is that easy. You have to work for everything – be good enough.